loose ends

i thought for about- a good 5 minutes -going on blog hiatus. we here at MT.IVY. are not perfect performance cyborgs. nor are you gentle readers. as we, each of us, in support of our community endlessly click away on page after page of writing exemplar. but we can't be compulsive about it or we're just going to burn out. i thought for a rest we should put ourselves in "comatose" land and go on with our ordinary worrisome lives, but we want "us" to be here for a long time...

in the meantime, in this inbtw post, you have things to look forward to: i'll be finishing up the RPP's (i'm really excited about the straw project), posting a series about my camping trip which includes a seal, dolphins, a deludge of seaweed, 3 shots of whiskey, a korean family, a cracked camera, a dead car battery and much much more.

things on my mind:

1. someone in the neighborhood threw eggs at my car. i did not witness the carnage of protein laden goo but apparently it was only our car that got hit. i am a bit militant about parking. so perhaps i deserve it. but if the ghetto family next door didn't have so many fucking cars i wouldn't be. i wouldn't have to double park myself in my own driveway. i live in a rez.dist. for fucks sake. there should be no parking problems. fucking ghetto fucking neighbors. fuck.
2. my friend and i (surprise) disagree on political issues. i skew conservative. and for over 2 years i've put up with her (ahem) liberal hippie bleeding heart rants about global warming, the iraq war, bush, and who knows what the fuck else she heard about on NPR. i tend to agree with her a lot on a philosophical basis in terms of government, power, reminding her that the govt isn't necessarily there as a moral force of good. you know, all that disillusioning stuff that makes your blood pressure rise. also, i don't feel informed enough so i will hardly give an opinion on current events but instead can only look back to history and mankind as a whole for a likely indicator about future events. world peace is not possible. mankind skews more evil than good but that doesn't mean the apocalypse isn't coming tomorrow and if it is what can we do about it but what we are doing about it. just live your life, do what you do and don't fret- right? well regardless of which way you feel about such things the point is that you never like people to push their issues on you 24/7. so i'd had it- and said, no, i don't think a movie discussion group is the place to push your political agenda even if it is an oliver stone film... bcs it tends to flare up anger, encourage ad hominem attacks and deviate intelligent conversation into babble storms of anxiety, and rage... she concluded after a long winded conversation that i was condescending and treating her like a child and that apparently we can no longer talk about politics. i think as friends we should give each other a little more credit, but we'll see.
3. in other news i made a :to do: for fall/winter list: which includes: camping (which i will be doing in november-18-22, beach side), whale watching, manicure, massage, volleyball and of course, kite flying, oh also i should add hiking bcs i haven't done that in a while.
4. my dad's chain smoking is starting to get to me. i clocked it. every 15 minutes. 6 minutes to smoke. pause. light up. i know the beast or whatever the fuck it is, has him, but it blows. also... i'll just post about it later. i could go on and on. sure maybe i'm a mooch but i'm so cute and adorable. how can you say no to me?
5. work is sometimes actually work. i've got projects man. and i can.not.get.to.them.
6. i have a periphery anxiety about things that are going merrily along, and that' probably bcs i'm employed, everything is fine and i'm working toward my goals- so why not start to unnecessarily panic about money, being jobless, and future long term goals i have no control of... sigh. never you mind.
7. i have successfully avoided lard cookies (aka oreos), threw a tantrum yesterday but worked out today... only to slip off the belt and come perilously close to biting it hard, becoming one of those long talked about moments that are legend. there would be screams, gasps of horror and a mangled whining mess who moans- no, no. don't call an ambulence. i don't have HEALTH insurance. gasp. whimper.