keep it

having broken my own rule of yesterday- eating as much company food as possible, i promptly ate before i came to work then realized that they were catering breakfast today- thing missed: breakfast burritos. in order to lessen the impact of such a costly mistake i took a small plate of luxury fruits back to my desk such as: grapes, pineapple and strawberries. even though i am too full to eat them i will try. dammit.

besides that angst- i was going to post something new today- i had a friend who used to exchange- what color are you today- days, which progressed to what color and texture are you?, to what animal and or thing and or situation are you which of course involves color and texture. . . and this went on in varying degrees for at least a few years- where we'd occassionally send each other a round of emails regarding our current states. i have to say i'm sad we're not that great of friends anymore. initially i thought she didn't think much of me and told another friend of ours so- who said definitively i was wrong- so i recommitted myself and sadly did not meet with anything lasting. of course she's there, i'm here and yet... there are only so many emails i can write that go unanswered- before i either take the hint or uh, take the hint. but we are on myspace. i sent her a msg that went: hey! thought we could keep in touch vicariously thru myspace- no commitment... she added me and did not reply. i can't quite decide if she likes me well enough to know what i'm doing but not enough to really know what i'm doing. and leave it at that- but we'll always have this one unique thing. so that being said,

Today I am: a glossy dark chocolate brown (metal) safety pole in the middle of a wheat field. about 3, 4 ft high- i'm discernable when the grass is blowing but i fade from view frequently as the breeze subsides.