yah-but. no-but.

it finally happened. no, not that. chirstmas. i feel it. why i feel it necessary to feel christmas i know not. but its like embracing the seasons. also it's sentimental. which i have issues with. i really need to investigate the idea of sentiment and why i'm so against it but i am. but just not an hour ago as i was thinking of things to put on my retail do's and don'ts blog i was making ginger-bread ornaments and while emptying the 1/4 part crisco into the bowl with the 1/2 packed brownsugar, my lips contured into something like a smile, more a side smile, with the left having the more dominant upward trend. but there it was, that feeling nonetheless. it helped that tony bennet was singing some christmas song that wasn't longing for new york or snow... and the making of the merry ornament men (and possibly small hearts) but ingredients don't a feeling make- somehow they mixed though- possibly bcs of the inhalation of ground cinammon and cloves but whatever it was... here it resides.