trip part 10: all the wiser

1. As much as you've trained yourself to roll with the punches, there are still some moments you cannot get back, the significance of which will not really diminish with distance and over time, and the feeling of regret even where you had so little control.

2. Watching your little toddler throw up is just plain pitiful. They have no idea what's happening, all they seem to know is that it's weird and it hurts.

3. Losing the contents of one's stomach for a 36-hour timespan strains muscles you don't even think of, but you feel them all the next day. Losing the contents of one's stomach for a 36-hour timespan when 8 months pregnant sets off a lovely chain of B-H contractions, adding sheer insult to injury, and planting in your brain a tiny sense of alarm that the baby might just fall out onto to the floor 7 weeks early and hundreds of miles from home, on top of everything else.

4. Being sick is not fun, but being sick while away from home, with a sick baby and a sick husband? Triply not fun.

5. Whining on a blog makes you feel better sometimes.

6. The things you worry about and what actually happens rarely match up.

7. Zoning out on TV, i.e. an ANTM Cycle 6 marathon, forever proves to be the best medicine when not feeling well.

8. Pushing oneself out the door when not feeling completely up to par can be entirely worth it.

9. Bleaching commonly used surfaces, laundering every cloth item worn/touched/looked at while ill, and changing all the bed sheets are instrumental to the recovery process. As is plotting, if only in a half-serious manner, revenge.

10. Even in the midst of complete and total suckitude, I can usually find a few sparkling moments.

And... that is all.