I struggle with God in everyone too- its more that God's image and likeness is in everyone, since you know no one is walking around connected to Him like they should be. Theologically more is needed than even that understanding, because I think it leads us to be harder on ourselves than we ought to be. And maybe it goes to purpose- to see the likeness of God, or people as God's children, doesn't remove elements of truth or judgement from them, or the 'rightness and wrongness' of their actions but instead gives us compassion to their brokenness, and their struggles, and their non-godness and their --'they need jesus today' and so do i? Lends us mercy and patience? Big words. Sometimes so abstracted. But then I also think in dealing with these sorts of things I think, without God's supernatural interference in my life I would be acting selfishly and according to my own purpose and not his anyway. There must be some help he's lending. Sometimes I really do have a tangible feeling that God is giving me something I lack- like patience- kids must test the limit of even divine help, knees to the ground, hands clenched kind of deliver me from my own emotive storm. You have a tough job. You must sometimes lose yourself from the actual amazingness of it- what do you do to step outside of it and laugh and have mercy on these willful infuriating individuals who inflict you with all that is in a man- going about fully minded on being who they are with no assistance, or no knowledge of the balance of freewill and obedience? I don't know how you disarm those finally tuned button-pushing mechanisms that are being formed in your parenthood but by supernatural assistance. And then maybe seeing the parts of them that reflect what it is to be happy, to laugh, to be silly, to find beauty, that must be like taking a walk through the world and finding Gods reflection there too. Totally necessary. It must work in both ways, compassion, acceptance, joy despite the imperfection of it all. Both correction and reproof entwined with mercy.
Anyway, in other news my dad brought home a giant bowl of salsa. I could've used it when I had my chicken quesadilla today (on brownriceflourtortillas)... needed the spice or bite of onions and whatever else is in salsa or guacamole, i wouldve taken that too. But as it is, I guess its here for next time, whenever that will be.
Already I've had too many popsicles and am thinking about what sort of 'greens' i'm going to have for dinner. Due to a lack of greens allday, and most of yesterday. Amber is coming over and we're going to watch '24'- I finished my book too and wonder what i should read next- it may be between: brideshed revisited, red tent, memoirs of Geisha, eat/pray/whatever, or maybe a mystery or a historical novel. I can't decide. I already have a balance of non-fiction i'm reading or too many as the case may be. Perhaps I've entered into a time of reading and all the projects will have to wait. I keep thinking i'm going to run out of netflix but xfiles is going to keep me a bit longer. Well anyway Amber just Im'd me to tell me the mail hasn't arrived yet so she hasn't left yet. I guess I'll go wander outside and sip my sparkling water, think about snacks or something or chocolate icecream.
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i should be getting BSG season 4 (the first half) on DVD loan from my boss next week. should we make plans? : )
I vote for Red Tent. Sometimes I think you'd like EPL, but then I'm not sure...I've heard such fiery opinions against it. But definitely Memoirs of a Geisha, you will like. I hope. :)
What about seeing divinity in the characteristics, qualities, talents, etc of people? Rather than just the physicality, do these reflect God? Maybe you've already answered that one...
parker!- i've seen the first 1/2 of s4- maybe we should unit/e for s4.5 ;) hope little tokyo was awesome.
penolin- i think they definitely reflect God, but don't embody God- but yah right- like in the bible, things like patience, kindess, mad awesome carving of ducks skills (thats not in the bible but still applicable)- we're like his creations, his flowers... is how i see it. but we take nature and the sun for granted, appreciating someones talent sometimes makes me just see how they/i/we squander it- the insight of it- or its not enough for me to see that. i do admire and envy what i lack vs. what i see in other people sometimes too though and is it something to try and create in myself or see them as having a unique gift. ponderous.
and i am thinking feb. the non/job has a lot to do with it though- i could come in beg of dec too...? tic prices look the same for either month right now.
Umm, you could totally come dec 12, which is CHRISTMAS CRAFT WEEKEND at jamie's. Now that would indeed be memorable. Would already be in RDU. :)
Going out of town Dec. 9-11... February's obviously wide open, but then do I risk missing out if you have a job?
Seeing M again! Eee! We want to visit you in late 2010, too. That is my master plan.
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